[sinking]

I am hurting inside so much.

so much going on.

i dont have anyone whom i can talk to IRL.

just wanted someone to know

i am here, i exist and i am hurting...

[kate33624]

I am in the same place, sinking. You are not alone here. Why are you hurting?

[Marsuevess]

i understand you exactly, i don't have anyone who understands me in rl. if u want someone to talk to i will talk to you on here

[sinking]

Thank you so much...
But i dont think it can be put on words...
What can i say?
I am hurting because of all my life and because of life itself.
I am so sick of living.

[Thunder Bow]

You got a good case of depression. Seeing a therapist may help. It does not hurt to talk this out with someone.

[written_by]

I was up late last night, watching some TV and I started to cry. For no reason. My wife and son were sound asleep. It was a good day, and I just got sad. Started thinking bad thoughts (suicidal) and just started to ball.

It happens. It's okay to be sad. Just gotta realize it's okay to be happy too.

[sinking]

Thanks,

i have already tried therapy, it helped living day by day but didnt help with my view on life, because im not depressed, just realistic. i have become good at pushing these thoughts and feelings in a hidden corner of my mind but something they come up and i feel overwhelmed. they will go away again soon. writing here and being read helped.

thank you very much!

[pug88]

I think i understand--don't want to presume. I have pain that never really goes away, but just slips into a little corner of my mind when I get busy or turn on music. It always comes back. I wish I knew how to end it so I could share it with you! Meanwhile, as you said, just putting it out there to be acknowledged can help. Hope you have a better night!

[anxteach]

You are not alone. I've been there and felt that. A lot of us on here have.

[Alter]

Originally Posted by sinking

Thanks,

i have already tried therapy, it helped living day by day but didnt help with my view on life, because im not depressed, just realistic. i have become good at pushing these thoughts and feelings in a hidden corner of my mind but something they come up and i feel overwhelmed. they will go away again soon. writing here and being read helped.

thank you very much!

That is being depressed, for example i know i failed in life i am also weak for letting me get consumed everyday by pain without fighting back and this life is just not worhy, i am not worthy of being alive i don't even have any reason or will to be alive.

See? I also am a realistic person.

[sinking]

Thank you all for your responses.

I havent answered sooner because i honestly dont know what to say.

Everything is still there, coming in waves.

Alter, i get what you mean. but i get up and go to work every morning, i even try new things, i smile, eat as always and i dont cry, feel sad or sorry for myself, so i dont think i am depressed. i have never been diagnosed with depression either, only with "mood disorder NOS", so i dont feel i am depressed or can say i am.

Life and living is just SO hard. for everyone, but i cant stand it.
still, im trying to do my best...