[PianogirlPlays]

After the struggle I had with my daughter I went through a long spell of feeling angry and hurt. Now, if I choose to remember it is just like hitting myself in the head. I have made and received some peaceful contacts with her but I still stop and think an awful thought based on the event. Now it is me making painful choices in my head. This is now a long time ago , five months , and I really should be over it. All the bad thoughts just make me feel terrible. It is pretty sickening to practice this bad habit. Hurts me body and being. Definitely want to stop. Need better techniques.

[CANDC]

PianogirlPlays sorry to hear you are in pain

You don't have to get into details because that could just trigger more emotions and possibly blame.

I think it is wonderful you are able to communicate with your daughter. You could write her thoughtful notes or even texts, but notes you get to read over and edit if needed.

I suspect you play the keyboard or piano from your name. What about recording a touching song and sending it to her. My mom likes TO EACH HIS OWN. I like a lot of the Oscar and Hammerstein musicals.

It reminds me of a sign I put on the wall when I was playing the blame game:
WHAT DID I DO RIGHT?

By focusing on that I eventual got past the what ifs and only if I...

You have a great deal to gain nurturing a relationship with your daughter.

Thanks for sharing your story.