[Shirt1212]

I don't know if you've seen The Lego Movie (I have 2 kids under 2 so I have) there is a character Unikitty, she tries to stay positive and happy no matter what's going on around her, that's how I feel. My holidays have always sucked, my mom hates my dads family even when they were married and she wasn't afraid to tell us exactly how horrible they all are. My dads family can be insensitive and my grandma plays favorites. That's what I grew up with, on top of her blowing up at her parents and we wouldn't even go over there, when she got remarried she hated her new inlaws. She's called off holidays all together. That was my past I always promised that I wouldn't do that to my kids, I want to make my own traditions, so even of whoever wants to rain on the day we have our own special things, our own happy memories. This year we aren't going home for Christmas, I'm not speaking to my mother. I know that sounds childish but it's the only option. I know she won't change and I have to be strong and stop giving into her guilt trips. But I feel like Unikitty just trying to push forward and be happy when all i want to do is cry and scream. I want to drive home and slap my mom until she knows why we are like this, I want to scream this is My Life!, My House!, My Family! I want to shake her until she gets her head out of her *** and gives my husband a chance!!!!!!! My husband has literally saved lives, and done things that no one should have to do. He is an amazing father, but she just sees a man that isn't the one she wanted. I want to show her that yes she settled twice!!!! But I didn't if I didn't think my husband was the one I would have told him no. Now I feel guilty for keeping my kids from family, I feel guilty for being proud of my husband. I'm so sad. We could go home and stay at my inlaws (my mom hates them) and go over my dads where my sister will glare at me. I could go home and actually have fun with these people my believes are evil, but then I would pay for it. It might not be tomorrow or next year but my mother will find a way to ruin it. I just want to cry, I want to morn our relationship, she thinks I'm weak and stupid but I'm not. Now im rambling

I'm sorry for the long post just want to cry, but I wont.

[avlady]

yes we have some similiar family in laws that ruin it for everyone especially over money this year. We ended up going to my husbands brothers 2 of them over thanksgiving had a great time but there was something missing as we also lost several aunts and parents over the years too. Just letting you know you have compny in the in law area and family area too. just wish it would get better.

[sideblinded]

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