[kat.luna]

All this started when i was around 5. I know sex is normal, but at 5 years old i shouldn't know everything about it. I always heard my parents having sex. (It was very loud and very often). I started to gain some disgust for them at that age. I was always scared to go to sleep, and i would always cover my ears and cry till i dosed off. I have a younger sister, so everytime they would start at it i would sing to her or talk really loudly so she wouldn't hear them. At the age of 7 (around that time), i found xxx pictures of them together, every now and then toys around the house, and pieces of newspapper with circled numbers of those ladies who ask for sex. Time as passed and this didn't stop. I grew angrier and angrier, i started to be a cold person, i hate people touching me, specially when I'm sleeping. I'm still very nervous everytime i go to sleep and i always sleep with my ipod on. I don't want a family, nor do i want kids. I'm afraid i would hurt them like my parents hurt me. And yes, i know it is a normal thing and whatever, but maybe that's just me, but everytime i do it, i always make sure i will not bother anyone. I feel that is respect. Nowadays im 23 and im too disgusted of being in the same room with them. What should i do? I know this is wrong, but it is how i feel..

[jelly-bean]

Maybe it's time for you to talk to a therapist. Obviously this became an issue when you were little and now it is affecting your adult life. A therapist might be able to help you work out these feelings you have.

[sideblinded]

Hi kat.luna

Welcome to Psych Central!

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[cremedelacreme]

Thinking of you! I live in a house the size of an apartment with my parents and brother. My parents do it and are very obviously about it. My mom has to get plastered first as well. For knowing we live in such a small house, you'd think they'd be a little considerate of it but they are not. It grosses me out and makes me hate them. I sometimes don't like when my boyfriend touches me too much- wonder if that is related or just depression?