No Life

I was sent a packet from SSI titled Disability Function Report-Adult. It was about 10 pages thick. It asked me some very intimate questions obviously because they want to know how disabled I am before they agree to pay me for disability. Ex. Do you spend time with others? What type of activities do you do with others? List the places you go on a regular basis. First, other than the people I live with, no I do not spend time with others. Second, since i have no friends anymore, no activities. Third, I only go to my doctor's office and Wal-Mart on a regular basis. Imagine putting up with ten pages of this. Im not new to this. This packet has made me do what I've been trying not to do for years, realize how much depression and anxiety has stolen from me. I cried for an hour. I have got to find a way to get my life back. Please God, let me have my life back.

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Filling out those soc sec disability application forms is very stressful emotionally. I had just the same reaction as you did. Fortunately, depression and anxiety tend to not stay at the same level all the time. You most likely will have periods when you'll be able to do more.

You have to make strong decision and stick to them. God will not help you if you won't yourself. I am talking from my own experience. I went through some serious depression but one day I woke up and told myself, it is enough. You have only one life and live it the best you can. Take the best of it. Don't sit and feel sorry for yourself. You have to do the first move. Not God, not your doctor, not anyone else but YOU. And one more thing, if you are taking some pills, try to stop. Not in one day of course but with time. All you need is a good conversation with yourself and decide what you want. Then tell yourself, I can do it and I will do it. I will not allow depression and anxiety defeat me. I AM MASTER OF MY SOUL, I AM MASTER OF MY MIND. Good luck!

it may be a good thing if you write the truth that you have nobody and no place to go because you are disabled and they will see that and you will get the money you need. that is a sign of disability, tell them about your anxiety too. wishing you well.

I thought I had came once before. I cried my heart out to God. I began to see what He had been trying to show me. My eyes were open. I thought I had began a new journey. But for some reason, it wasn't my time. I had been isolated for a very long time to be alone with my thoughts and God but I fell again somehow. I'm not by any means a terrible person. I'm a very considerate and compassionate person. I don't understand why I fell again and I fell in the same dark hole. I agree with you wholeheartedly that I have to do my part. It's the only way. It thought I was. I don't know what happened. My name is Tiffany Thomas. Please pray for me. Pray for my understanding so that I can master my mind. Read 1 Samuel 16:14 and tell me what you think about how the Word says God sent His spirit of "depression" unto Saul. I need understanding of that verse. Thank you very much.

I didn't know that's the kind of thing they ask for for SSI applications. I'm the same way. I have no friends, I only go to work, school and the grocery store. I have no social life. No regular activities besides watching tv and playing video games sometimes unless I'm manic, then I try to do everything. But even now I'm manic and I have no social contact with anyone other than my therapist and psychiatrist. Maybe that bodes well for me getting SSI, which is good. There's also a team at my clinic that helps people get through the SSI application process and has a very high success rate. I just have to start the process.

Try not to feel ashamed that you are in the situation you are in. The SSI could really help, so follow through. Don't put blame on yourself, but do know that it is your responsibility to work toward "getting your life back" but you can have help with that too.

Sometimes I wish I had mania too but for me it's all major depression and extreme social anxiety. We are similar in some ways, but the ways we differ is that my illness has become so unbearable that I could not perform at my job anymore. I would cry like a 5 year old child while driving to work because I knew what I was in for. I was an RN and I loved my job until I began to receive some of the most horrible treatment at my place of work and that's what put everything into overdrive. Now I haven't worked since June 2014, I do nothing social, and many times it's even hard to go to the store. If my daughter doesn't go with me to ease my anxiety, I'll just stay home. So my life has been at a total stand still. If I'm turned down for this SSI, then I'm wondering who in the heck is it for.