[Kowareta]

For over a week now I've been so emotional. The smallest things annoy me, I can't sit in any class without getting super anxious, and I've just been so down. I mean I have depression and I've always briefly thought about things like cutting or suicide, but it seems like now I'm thinking more seriously about it. Not necessarily actually doing it, but just the convenience, if that makes sense.

I'm kind of worried at this point. I've been through phases like this that lasted maybe two days, but this is lasting a really long time. Just being tired and constantly getting worked up is so stressful. I feel like I could just melt into a puddle at any time, not able to hold my own weight up.

I just have no idea how to cope with all this. I've tried journals, poetry, writing a couple things on here, and talking to a friend. I just don't know anymore.

[WantToGrow]

I'm so sorry you are struggling. I had a bad day where I felt the way you are, so I can definitely relate. Just wanted to let you know I empathize :-)

[floridaman38]

I too have had those days, it seems like the weight of every little thing that goes wrong whether is it hard or easy to deal with and resolve, it takes control of your life. I want to tell you that it cannot take control of your life. You can make it, you will make it. Right now it seems hopeless but stand firm on the idea that you are alive right now, not because the problems subsided but because you are strong and withstood the tests of time. Remember you are here asking for help, you are asking for help, remember that. You can make it. It may take a little while but you will. I once had to lie down at work just to collect myself, I closed my eyes and just breathed. I slowed down and just took a minute. I got up feeling better, I put off my thoughts of trouble and just knew what I had to do at this moment. There is a time for everything and right now the time is for you to take a break and clear your mind. It will help. It helped me. You have resources on your side. And those resources are us, here on this site are people who struggle everyday and have found ways to deal. Ask questions and I'm willing to bet the answers you get will help. I sincerely hope this helps you. Be well, ask me a questions and I will answer if I can, ok seriously, I will not judge or think you are weird. You will make it. You are strong