[Steiner of Thule]

Just always in my core is this feeling that I'd like to retreat and just try to get disability if I can. I feel hopeless inside and yet I am forcing myself out quickly and doing stuff I couldn't have imagined before.

I don't feel like I know who I am or what I can do. Always walking on a tightrope.

It's all from the meds and yet I feel like I don't know if I will be able to keep getting or that I will lose them. Always reliant on something or someone.

I honestly, I just, I feel very close to making a dire mistake.

I wonder if what I am doing is considered courageous. Courage not being immune to fear but pushing forward despite fear, like they say.

Trying to push through the fear but I feel like I am going to be swallowed up. Am I too weak for this world?

[LucyD]

You say you are forcing yourself to do stuff. I think that's good. Try not to judge yourself but be kind to yourself. I can't even force myself to do anything. Facing your fear is what you are doing and it's something we all have to do some days. I think you are doing a good job.

[Thunder Bow]

I think you are finding yourself. Do not "force" your self to do things you don't like. But do take risks.



You choose this image for a reason. It think it fits you perfectly in what you are now doing.

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by LucyD

You say you are forcing yourself to do stuff. I think that's good. Try not to judge yourself but be kind to yourself. I can't even force myself to do anything. Facing your fear is what you are doing and it's something we all have to do some days. I think you are doing a good job.

I don't think I am. I just decided to give up

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

I think you are finding yourself. Do not "force" your self to do things you don't like. But do take risks.



You choose this image for a reason. It think it fits you perfectly in what you are now doing.

Yes I don't like to do anything really though. I mute myself and my emotions and try to push forth but the thoughts in my head are very nagging and persuasive. I quit

I wonder if what I am doing is considered courageous. Courage not being immune to fear but pushing forward despite fear, like they say.

I think so. I admire you for pushing as hard as you do, Steiner. I used to do that when I was in my mid-20s and I remember how terrifying it was at times.

[avlady]

be strong youre trying at least, don't give up now you've come too far