I'm something

Okay I have OCD, ADHD, Haphephobia, Mysophobia and a Pornography and Masturbation Addiction. I sometimes find myself arguing with myself and I worry I'm slowly losing my grip on reality and I'm developing unhealthy impulses.

I sometimes get so frustrated or upset I start screaming "Shut up! Shut up!" or "Get out of my head! Get out of my head!" Also my OCD has gotten worse since I had a few run ins with blood and now it's like the slightest red glance or whatever and I freak out. It's like the more I'm around people the worse it gets.

I'm also slightly apathetic. I find it hard building emotional connections to people let me put it this way the only person I care about is my mother. It's like she's the only person I'm genuine with but with everyone else it's like I'm faking it.

I keep trying to figure out if I have some sort of mental disorder and I don't know what I am exactly but I know I'm likely something.

Well, you listed a group of different mental disorders so I think that its safe to say that you have one. Are you looking for an all inclusive reason to lump the above you listed?

I know from experience that OCD can be controlled with medication and therapy. Maybe you need to see a Doctor to get a true diagnosis. and work from there.