I'm not allowed to feel anything but hate, then I get ridiculed for it.

I'm a white male. I don't identify as either, but that's what other people see and so that's what I get treated as. Basically I'm the cause of all the world's problems and I'm not allowed to be angry about it because I exist solely as a punching bag for others. So why am I expected to be sane and normal and to give a damn about the feelings of others? When they do NOTHING but cause me pain? They seriously expect ME to care about THEM, when THEY cause ME so much agony and suffering? If given the chance, I'd wipe the stain of humanity off the face of the planet. Not because I'm evil, but because I simply can't handle the AGONY that YOU put me through. You happy now? What else did you expect? Nobody cared about MY pain and anyone only responded when I expressed anger and hate. I don't know anything else and yet you expect me to??? HOW DARE YOU???

Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry you are in pain and have suffered abuse. I personally was not responsible for that as probably all the people on Psych Central were not, but it still saddens me to see another human being suffer.

We are all here because we too have suffered abuse and do not know why. It is sad that the world is not a better place than it is, but we have our lives and can make the best of it.

Could you see a psychiatrist that could diagnose your condition and prescribe meds that could help stabilize your moods?

We are all potentially people that can empathize with you. Please recognize that in your future posts and do not mix us up with your abusers. Again, my deepest sympathy on the abuse you have endured.

What you have posted about being allowed to do or not do, to feel or not feel, is a lie. You can and may and do feel whatever you are feeling. I am so sorry for your pain. I am so very glad you have reached out by joining and posting.

I do not know you but I can promise you that you will never be ridiculed by me. Feelings are not facts.

Gentle hugs and love to you today from me.

i am also sorry you were treated so bad. i hope you can see a doc and t, maybe meds would help too. it wasn't your fault, people can be just plain mean and uncaring, yet you shouldn't let them win. keep looking up and roll with the punches and fight for your right to be human. good luck

sometimes writing helps me get out some of the anger out.
I hope it helped you as well