[indigo1015]

Wow today was really terrible... I was sick all morning, and felt very depressed because I don'it think I will ever find true love, I'll be alone my whole entire life. I also have felt huge all day-- I feel revolting, like I will never ever be tall and skinny no matter how hard I try, no matter how often I work out and and how bad I starve myself. When I got to work this afternoon for my shift things just got even worse from there. One of the head honchos basically chewed me out in front of everyone else for a mistake that someone else made that cost us $900-- and again, it was someone else's mistake. From then on, work got worse, we had a never-ending line of people coming to pick up their scripts for at least 3 solid hours straight. Many were belligerent and mean, and most of their prescriptions required prior authorizations or were too soon to refill or had other issues that prevented us from having them ready, which of course made things worse. All I can say is THANK GOD TOMORROW IS MY DAY OFF... I feel so horribly weak and drained from today, my body hurts all over and I had no opportunity to eat once I got to work so I am starving, which for me is a very dangerous situation, I am scared I will inhale my entire fridge. So here I am, fat, ugly, exhausted, starving, alone, depressed and pathetic... someone please tell me it gets better...

[Bewilderbeest]

So sorry you've had such an awful day. Praying that tomorrow goes better for you.

[Thunder Bow]

Bullying supervisors are bad news. Can you talk to someone above him about he done to you? If you can't get support from anyone at work, then think about changing jobs. Therapy can help you with your self image problems.

[phoenix7]

gee what a crappy day tomorrow is a fresh start - heres hoping that its a much much much much much better day

[avlady]

i do hope you feel better tomarrow too good luck

[indigo1015]

Thanks for the advice, yeah I may talk to the pharmacy manager tomorrow, she just got back from vacation and I was off today, but I think you're right that it is probably a smart thing to do. I'm in therapy right now, have been my whole life, so honestly I'm about to give up hope re self image problems :-(

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

Bullying supervisors are bad news. Can you talk to someone above him about he done to you? If you can't get support from anyone at work, then think about changing jobs. Therapy can help you with your self image problems.

[indigo1015]

Thanks everyone for your kind words and positive reinforcement, it means a lot to know that there are people on my side :-)

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by indigo1015

Wow today was really terrible... I was sick all morning, and felt very depressed because I don'it think I will ever find true love, I'll be alone my whole entire life. I also have felt huge all day-- I feel revolting, like I will never ever be tall and skinny no matter how hard I try, no matter how often I work out and and how bad I starve myself. When I got to work this afternoon for my shift things just got even worse from there. One of the head honchos basically chewed me out in front of everyone else for a mistake that someone else made that cost us $900-- and again, it was someone else's mistake. From then on, work got worse, we had a never-ending line of people coming to pick up their scripts for at least 3 solid hours straight. Many were belligerent and mean, and most of their prescriptions required prior authorizations or were too soon to refill or had other issues that prevented us from having them ready, which of course made things worse. All I can say is THANK GOD TOMORROW IS MY DAY OFF... I feel so horribly weak and drained from today, my body hurts all over and I had no opportunity to eat once I got to work so I am starving, which for me is a very dangerous situation, I am scared I will inhale my entire fridge. So here I am, fat, ugly, exhausted, starving, alone, depressed and pathetic... someone please tell me it gets better...

I had a tough time growing up. A lot of ridicule and physical confritations both at home and at school. When I was 16 years old I seriously started to contomplate my life. I started to take account of how I functioned in life. What I realized was, I wasn't ugler than anyone else, I wasn't cruel, I wasn't stupid, I wasn't a bad person. I started a diologue in my mind that would start when ever I found myself having feelings of self loathing. If I started to think I was ugly, or a bad person, I would quickly tell myself that that was not true. I had big blue eyes and blondish hair, I was funny and a loyal friend. I tried my best to be kind but also had a deep line in the sand of how much I would take from others. Take the time and identify the good stuff about you and when you start to get down on yourself remind yourself that you are good, kind, smart, etc. Most of us know we are being to hard on ourselves but it is important to start a positive dialogue in your head reminding yourself of your good things.

[indigo1015]

Hey clarity, great advice thank you :-) Sounds like something I should start doing for sure

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

I had a tough time growing up. A lot of ridicule and physical confritations both at home and at school. When I was 16 years old I seriously started to contomplate my life. I started to take account of how I functioned in life. What I realized was, I wasn't ugler than anyone else, I wasn't cruel, I wasn't stupid, I wasn't a bad person. I started a diologue in my mind that would start when ever I found myself having feelings of self loathing. If I started to think I was ugly, or a bad person, I would quickly tell myself that that was not true. I had big blue eyes and blondish hair, I was funny and a loyal friend. I tried my best to be kind but also had a deep line in the sand of how much I would take from others. Take the time and identify the good stuff about you and when you start to get down on yourself remind yourself that you are good, kind, smart, etc. Most of us know we are being to hard on ourselves but it is important to start a positive dialogue in your head reminding yourself of your good things.

[Sinking Feeling]

That was lack of leadership on their part and should not be in that position.

Don't worry about how you look to others. If we all did that, no one would leave their home!

Just do the best you can and be the best you can and carry a level of confidence in yourself!

People will see that I assure you! And you will make more friends too!

[CapedCrusader]

I feel sorry for you. Good things come to those who wait.