I am upset with the judicial system which has failed me and my spouse. I am upset with where I live for gay bashing. I am upset I didn't move last month and could not because of brain seizures. I am angry i have mental clients for neighbors that the state dumped in here with us seniors. i am angry that my life has gone to hell in a hand basket and i am so stuck feeling. i am angry for how i have been treated and what i have gone through the last 5 years and i just want to explode. i think i would rip someones face off if they got into mine. that is how i am today, Teed off to the max.

[*Laurie*]

I'm so sorry, omegalamed. There's a word in Yiddish...tsurus, meaning aggravating troubles. Sounds like you're dealing with more than your fair share of tsurus.

[Nammu]

Gay bashing is not ok...I'm sorry.

I do not mean to be insensitive my mentioning mental clients where i live. I am stressing that the state i live in deliberately puts them in with volunerable adults with disabilities physical. I bit the bullet.... I called the doctors office and asked for a social worker / counselor to speak too. They said it would be free of charge for me, they had to run it by them and they would schedule an appointment for me to go in and talk with them. I said I did not want to be profiled or labeled if i use their services, that i was a proud person and it is difficult for me to ask for help. they acknowledged that and would pass on how i feel. i will wait for their phone call. i have been angry all day today. i feel the anger finally coming to the surface like a flood. it is the right timing i do believe cause i don't care what people think anymore, i am tired of being judged and having to hide who i am as a person. i am so tired of people judging me.

[Fuzzybear]