There are those who believe Halloween is the end of the harvest season, the end of the year.

Ironically, this day has seen a lot ef endings for me including relationships, the passing of loved ones, even impact to my mental health.

It used to be my favourite time of year. My mother (who passed on a Halloween) was mostly a bully to me, but Halloween was the one time of year she made a special time for me. It was the only time of year I have positive memories of family.

That is gone now. I mourn my mom, I mourn a friend, I mourn my better health. I mourn the happier times I spent with my own children, and now I mourn the end of a relationship.

Today will be a difficult one.

[*Laurie*]

I'm sorry, rcat. It seems that Halloween is a rough time for so many people. Also, it opens up the holiday season...all kinds of emotions there. It seems the holidays tend to bring so many reminders of things we grieve for.

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry it brings such sadness to you. I know it doesn't bring me the fun it used to but then nothing does.

Thinking of you.

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I'm having a really hard time coping today.

I reached out to the hospital transition team. Technically I've been out too long to be under their care but they are sending someone out to me tormorrow morning.

I feel so lost. I feel so alone. How dare this day be stolen from me!

[divine1966]

I am so very sorry you are struggling. I personally hate holidays. I wish I can avoid them all together. Sending you hugs.

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[Thunder Bow]

Maybe with all those relationships out of the way now, you can start to heal, and spring will come for you.