[kkfk]

Right now, I am dealing with a good friend disappointing me by cancelling an important meeting.
I'm (also), dealing with my dying ex-husband in Hospice, right now.

Can it get any worse?

I drove 1300 miles to see my ex and he has slowly declined. Watching him fade away is one of the toughest challenges that I have had to face, in my life. He is heavily medicated and is only receiving Pallitive care, at this time. I'm not sure how much longer he has, but I'm scared to go back home to Oregon (from AZ), because I want to attend his funeral (if and when), he does pass.

I guess I am already going through the grieving process. This is harder than when I lost my parents. We were married for 21 years.

Disappointed/Depression/Sad in AZ

KKfk, I am sorry for your loss. Yes, you are bravely being there to someone who was a part of your life. It is hard to watch a loved one die. I lost my spouse to a mental illness and break down. They are not getting better rather i believe worse and there is nothing i can do for them. I have also lost my Dad who died Nov. 2, 2012. Halloween 3 years ago we all were around his bed watching him suffer. He died 2 days later. He was a shell of a man, wracked in pain. And every year i feel it more so. It is hard to lose a parent. And my Mom has dementia and also is going downhill. There is no quality of life just empty eyes, sometimes a sparkle in them, mostly questioning, unsure of herself or the ability to remember anyone. The only thing i can tell you is so many of us have gone through what you are going through, and you really are not alone. I will pray for you. Remember you have all of us here at PC as your family. (((hugs))) and prayers.

[kkfk]

Originally Posted by omegalamed

KKfk, I am sorry for your loss. Yes, you are bravely being there to someone who was a part of your life. It is hard to watch a loved one die. I lost my spouse to a mental illness and break down. They are not getting better rather i believe worse and there is nothing i can do for them. I have also lost my Dad who died Nov. 2, 2012. Halloween 3 years ago we all were around his bed watching him suffer. He died 2 days later. He was a shell of a man, wracked in pain. And every year i feel it more so. It is hard to lose a parent. And my Mom has dementia and also is going downhill. There is no quality of life just empty eyes, sometimes a sparkle in them, mostly questioning, unsure of herself or the ability to remember anyone. The only thing i can tell you is so many of us have gone through what you are going through, and you really are not alone. I will pray for you. Remember you have all of us here at PC as your family. (((hugs))) and prayers.

Thank you very much for your kind words. I lost my Mom, two years ago, and my Dad passed in 1992, but I'm feeling this loss MUCH harder. I was an only child, and that surprises me.
Many thanks for the prayers!