[kreg]

In recent times I've been distressed, feeling sorry for myself over not doing better with my music interests-which are piano and guitar. Like mostly sitting on the sidelines all my life. I kept asking myself why? But now I think I have the answer and it came by watching Pete Rose and guitarist Ron Wood in videos.

Someone told Pete Rose he hoped to break Pete's world record for career hits. Pete said "you won't because you don't have the enthusiasm like I did. It's a God given gift and I had it and that's why I did what I did. In a tv interview Ron Wood said he knew he would one day play with the Rolling Stones because he had all the enthusiasm.

I'm satisfied with that solution. I just didn't have the drive. I just ran hot and cold and got nowhere, never developing my skills far enough. It's still not too late to do something. I just need to find the key to enthusiasm, to keep it turned on so I can work everyday, not fanatically but just steady.

But then I have to ask myself could fear or shyness be the cause of sporadic work efforts/lack of enthusiasm? It seems very likely a trick of the mind to do such a thing. In my case by loosing my interest in music and getting distracted by another subject and then another and another. Where do I find the drive, the stay at it-ness?

We read so much about having the guts to 'just do it' but there are many things that require actual real skill before you can step out and do it. You can go over to the girls table and tell her how nice she looks and if you could buy her a drink. Yeah just do it. But with playing an instrument or handling a basketball like a pro you first have to have worked your xss off for a long time. Then you can worry about going on stage.

[bluekoi]

kreg, Could you put a group of like minded musicians together and jam a couple times a week? Maybe you could all motivate each other?

[kreg]

Originally Posted by bluekoi

kreg, Could you put a group of like minded musicians together and jam a couple times a week? Maybe you could all motivate each other?

That seems to be happening. My first thought is that the two guys are below me in that they can't focus well and just make a lot of noise but then I think maybe they are just what I need at the present. I'm thankful for what I have anyway.

[char12345]

I totally understand. recetnyl i have been feeling sadness and guilt and i have no idea why. Nothing is wrong. I feel so so so guilty for existing. i don't understand it.

[depressed_and_afrai]

Originally Posted by char12345

I totally understand. recetnyl i have been feeling sadness and guilt and i have no idea why. Nothing is wrong. I feel so so so guilty for existing. i don't understand it.

Feelings are so whacky. It's terrible feeling like something negative is the case without seeing a rational reason for feeling that thing. Like what the heck, I just want to feel semi-normal. I hope you have good luck identifying the source of those negative feelings I know "experimenting" with things to see how they affect my feelings has been helpful for me over the years in determining ways to avoid nasty feelings like this.