Heading to a surprise party tomorrow

Im dreading it. 100 people I dont know at all. My anxiety is high, Im starting to feel sick.

Its in a city about 4 hours away. My fiances best friend is turning 50. We have to go. I cant get out of it.

Its friends from fiancés past, people he hasnt seen in years. Im so afraid I'll embarrass him.

Question what he's doing with someone like me.

I was putting up Christmas lights on the house today and almost wished I had fallen off the ladder so I didn't have to go. Thats how much anxiety this is causing.

Why can't I just be normalish?!

I have an engagement party in two weeks that I am dreading. Good luck at your party, I'm sure people will think you are great!

Trust yourself, they are not perfect as well. You may want to question: What he is doing with people like some of them? Do not compare yourself with others. That is a sort cut to feeling bad about yourself. He may be more embarrassed being seen around with some of those other people.

So friday night fiance goes out with the guys and gets fall down drunk hammered. He was too hungover to go to the party. All the driving would have been up to me so im not too sad really. He started feeling guilty though but fell asleep so cant be too much guilt?! Lol