[kotaha14]

Sunrise, that beautiful bright light flashing from our windows with charming bird tweets, is one of the core happiness, excitement, and moreover the symbol of "Hope". I, as a child and a young teenager, morning light was one of the most touching moment in the day. What life is waiting ahead? Am I going closer to my dreams? Am I getting closer to who I should be? Even during my toughest days, morning light was always an oasis of hope. Until a little before I turned 18. Everything changed afterwards. Morning light of hope became the light of puzzlement, confusion, and hopelessness. Every morning, especially on clear days, I feel like I am constantly been zapped by some kind of electric weapon forever. I can't wake up until ten to finally resist all of the things in my head. It's almost midnight. I have to sleep. But I have to brace tomorrow for the next sunlight.

[shezbut]

Have you seen a Therapist or your doctor about the depression? I think that's a good first step. Depression is often caused by chemical differences in the brain. It is medical. Sometimes, a medication is all a person needs. Other times, there are emotional struggles that go along with the depression & that's how seeing a T helps a person put things into better perspective and feel a lot better.

Very best wishes to you ~ welcome to Psych Central!

kotaha14, i am not a morning person myself either. I wake up in the middle of the night. Go back to bed and don't want to wake up early. Today they were testing the alarm systems in each apt. I resented it and was starting to get very angry. I have no control over my sleep or lack there of. I only know if i need more time in bed in the morning then i will do so. Don't feel bad, you need it. Once you get going i am sure you more than make up for it. Be kind to yourself. Blessings (((hugs)))

[kotaha14]

Originally Posted by shezbut

Have you seen a Therapist or your doctor about the depression? I think that's a good first step. Depression is often caused by chemical differences in the brain. It is medical. Sometimes, a medication is all a person needs. Other times, there are emotional struggles that go along with the depression & that's how seeing a T helps a person put things into better perspective and feel a lot better.

Very best wishes to you ~ welcome to Psych Central!

I have tried several of them and never worked. I am going to take a mental health clinic today at my school but I don't think it will help me in any way. I have taken these kind of treatment for over six years but never made any significant difference. That is the problem. I live in Japan and I don't trust Japanese adults for what they have done to me when I was a little.

[bebogirl16]

I have always been a night owl, never a morning person, so waking up was always sort of an issue for me, but it wasn't until my early teens that it started getting worse.

Now as an adult mornings are the worst time for me, I can hardly get out of bed, and never really want to.
There is no reason for it in my head, except on some days when I have to act like I actually care about things so people around me won't get worried.