[Steiner of Thule]

I guess I am a little anxious about it.

I've been attempting to date a girl I met on another mental health site for the past 4-5 months. Known her for a few years in total and we've talked on and off in the past but it's been pretty constant since we started being "a couple."

I'm going to fly out to see her and I guess I am anxious and feel self conscious about it. Not sure how things are supposed to be done and I feel weird cause I haven't really socialized in person with someone as a friend in years and never as a lover so. Haven't skyped a lot but have a few times at least.

We've planned for a few months for this. In one way it's a good thing to travel and get out and do better with my anxiety issues but in another way I wonder if it's worth the possible damage to my self-esteem. My self-esteem is already pretty low since I have problems with bulimia and constant worrying about my looks. I have some serious moments of depression.

Trying not to think much of the visit since I don't plan on sexual stuff really at all and just hanging out and doing things like normal dates. Movies and lunch. Except we will be sleeping in the same bed together because I rented a place out for 10 days and we figured it would be easier to just stay in the same place. Though still nothing sexual. So I feel it's one worry I don't have to have on my plate.

I think I gained a little bit of stress weight from this trip coming and then I find the stress feeds off itself and makes me vomit and then I stress about that. Been drinking a lot of tea mixed with rescue remedy. Not taking any meds. Hope she doesn't think I'm too ugly or something.

Haven't really flown on my own before and it's all new to me but I hope things will be nice and be a good learning opportunity for me.

[Open Eyes]

This girl is probably nervous too Steiner and wondering the same things you wonder about. I think it's wonderful that you are going to give this a chance and see what happens, remember, nothing ventured nothing gained.

[IrisBloom]

I'm happy for you! I hope the trip goes smoothly and you both like what you see in person. I wish I could tell you not to be nervous, but I'd be the same way. Just try to relax and think about good things. Above all, have fun!

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

This girl is probably nervous too Steiner and wondering the same things you wonder about. I think it's wonderful that you are going to give this a chance and see what happens, remember, nothing ventured nothing gained.

Oh yup. I think it could be considered a fun vacation in a way if nothing else.