[Yismymindblank12]

I just had my very first nasty roadburn. I took it like a champ, but it feels like someone stabbed me in the stomach I have a lot of internal bleeding in one area, but it seems contained. My parents are taking me to urgent care later, even though I'm all bruised up. I'm crying a lot, because it put to note how defeated I feel.

It's not me getting hurt that bothers me at all or just learning how to do it right bothers me.

I got all the pain I feel right now of everything bothering me hitting me all at once. I feel like a ****ing loser for crying at the same time I know I'm not crying because of this pain. I walked home and I'm still ok. I didn't cared I ****ed up my phone that I paid a lot for or my favorite jacket. I don't care about those things. Yeah it frustrates me but doesn't hit my pride. No one said anything to me for falling I was a lone. I just had a realization how I feel so much isolated from everyone else that they only just care for themselves and when I'm really hurt they seem more indifferent than ever.

It ****s me up that how I feel this.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

It will pass. I hope your injuries are not serious. I used to keep falling off my motorcycle and felt as you do. The trick is to fall off better. The resilience of youth carries you through.

[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by ManOfConstantSorrow

It will pass. I hope your injuries are not serious. I used to keep falling off my motorcycle and felt as you do. The trick is to fall off better. The resilience of youth carries you through.

Exactly. I'm not a complete beginner though and I may have internal bleeding. I'm hoping not.
Or ruptured organs.I'm alright physical pain doesn't bother me.

[Yismymindblank12]

I take physical pain much easier than emotional pain. It just festers because I lack the resources needed. I can't afford it yet. I will be living my whole life still fighting my head and knowing it will be never be easy for every new interaction.

That how helpless I am to that but the pain I got getting hit and even if it's life threatening or excruciating like had been before for when I stopped breathing got a catheter got sick from encephalitis and many different diseases and being punched a lot and kicked the pain never hurts for me.

[Walking Man]

Sorry, Yis. I hope you're not hurt bad. It's easy to put yourself into what you do, and then feel bad when you have a failure. I can relate.

Check this out:

This is the Tour De France in 2011. A car hit Juan Antonio Fletcha and Johnny Hoogerland. Hoogerland did a flip into a barbed wire fence. It was nasty and bloody. He managed to finish the stage. He was in the King of the Mountains Jersey, and also won "Most Aggressive Rider" for finishing the stage. When he went on the podium he was crying. No one thought less of him for it. Sorry there's no English:

Crash:

Podium: