[EarthFlower5]

Hi everyone. My name is Laura and I'm 23 years old. It's really bothering me that lately, my mom has made me irritable so much so that I've used foul language at her and often don't recognize myself when I'm screaming at her. I was never a problem child when I was small, quiet and obedient and did what I was told. This only began in my late teens to now. I have PCOS and it may be linked to hormonal imbalance but somehow I don't want to put the blame on a medical condition.

It all started when my brother in law's mother told my sister that since my mother has a shy and introverted nature that she possibly has asburger's syndrome. My sister relayed her husband's mother's opinion to her and my mother, being the sensitive person that she is, she has never treated my sister the same way since. My mom doesn't believe for a minute she has that condition and is on anger mode when someone uses the word 'empathy' to her, because my sister looked up that people with that condition don't empathize towards others. So, fast forward to a few days ago - I come in the doorway very, very cold (not emotionally, the weather has been frigid lately), and before I could catch my breath, my mom starts asking me to do things, do errands etc. This really irritates me and instead of calmly asking her to wait till I settled down and warmed up, I start yelling at her, saying that she has no empathy. That's when she blows up at me. I start screaming at her to shut up (which I never did when I was little) and I call her foul names multiple times. Today and yesterday, I apologized, saying I don't believe she has that syndrome, I was just upset that she didn't let me walk in the door before talking to me - but to avail nothing has moved her. She even went so far as to say she regrets having me and my sister and wishes I would move out. So tonight, I screamed more foul language at her, and like I said, screaming and using obscenities towards my family members is NOT and has NEVER been something I've ever done. I know this post is long, but it disheartens me to see that I've come to a point where I don't even recognize myself when the 'beast' takes over. Thank you.

[gayleggg]

Yes, anger can get out of hand. Have you considered counseling? Your mom probably wouldn't go but going by yourself might could help with your part in the anger. We all say a lot of things we don't mean in anger and it's hard to take it back. I'm sure your mom was just angry and didn't really mean what she said but I know it still hurts.

[Bill3]

I agree with gayleggg.

Perhaps you might mention to your sister that there is no need to investigate or share her mother-in-law's opinions with your mother.

[Nimportequoi]

Wow- this is emazing. I have certain triggers that'll make me get paranoid delusions and be verbally aggressive towards people around me (which really bothers me, bc I regret it when the phase is over) and I called this certain, ego-dystonic part of myself "the beast" as well!