[PianogirlPlays]

I hate to say I have a collection in my head of things that I got angry about that just hasn't gone away. The new things just add more anger and make me even sicker but I still don't know the way to get rid of them. I tried to deal with them at the time but nothing seems to help. They get in and fester. Not being heard, not being believed, not being cared for, neglect, harsh words, separation, these are the things that are setting off all this anger which becomes very destructive in me. If I think about any of these incidents the pain goes up. Somethings I haven't dealt with the other person but here with my husband I try to. There is a lot packed in. Some date quite some time ago and some are part of my todays. It is making me sick!

[Skeezyks]

Hello PianogirlPlays: I'm sorry you are having this difficulty. I also struggle with a lot of anger. Most of it, in fact almost all of it, is from long ago at this point. Some of it is related to things that were done to me, or not done for me. But much of it is directed at myself for things I, in turn, did to others. It all contributes to an ongoing strain of passive suicidality I carry around with me 24 / 7.

I don't know that I have anything in the way of answers to this. What I try to do, in my own life, is to attempt to simply accept things as they are. This is the way it is. There's nothing I can do about it. (There's really not, in my case.) But pent-up anger can be corrosive. There's no doubt about it. I offer you my best wishes with the hope that, in some way, you will be able to find peace in your life.

[BLUEDOVE]

Hi,
Yeah,I know the feeling. Try and think of the whole-
of-part-of error. This is when you let a single thing bother the WHOLE of you,when it is only a PART of
you; it may not cure,but it can ease your pain.
Courage,
BLUEDOVE

[Shaly78]

Start with pen, paper, journal. Maybe then the numbness can lift the more your write speak. Speak with your therapist to learn how to not allow the family of stuff, not just anger sit there and not be dealt with. Sorry, my first T told 'not to let something fester' well before I was able to and ready to understand what that meant.....We are glad to help you through it as support on PC

(((hugs)))