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May 01, 2016, 07:34 AM
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I have been processing a lot of grief lately. Just for some background, about 2 years ago I had to rehome one of my dogs...then after moving, I got another dog...well, things didn't work out with the new dog so I had to find her a new home too. I know both the dogs are happy and healthy in their new homes...but I have been going through various stages of grief at having lost them both due to my depression and inability to take care of them.
I've also been triggered it wanting to get another dog but I've made myself a promise I won't until my service dog gets to be 8 or 9 and I am well enough to take care of 2 dogs at a time. Anyways, last night I had a dream that I owned six dogs and the aspca came to take them away and I was fighting desperately to get them back. I woke up in tears and panicking, missing my other two dogs so much. The dream was much more about the first dog I had to give up than the second, and I had much more grief attached to rehoming him that the other. I almost committed suicide because of it. And this morning I'm feeling very triggered to self harm even though I haven't done so in 10 months. I miss them so much right now and the grief is so fresh. It's just not fair...I thought I was over it. Seesaw Sent from my SM-N910V using Tapatalk
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May 06, 2016, 08:28 PM
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Hello seesaw: It's been a few days since you posted this. Hopefully you're feeling better now. We have a small dog we adopted from a pet rescue organization about 9 years ago now. He's wonderful. We love him. It is amazing how attached we can become to our pets. I send healing thoughts your way with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace within.
 
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May 06, 2016, 08:36 PM
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Thanks, Skeezyks. I am not doing very well at all. I'm having serious SH urges and just trying to go hour by hour now to keep my self from.SH..
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What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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May 06, 2016, 11:27 PM
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I totally understand this. I have grappled with giving my dogs back to their rescues, because they are so, so hard to deal with and they cost me a fortune. It makes the most sense, but I just can't do it. Just thinking about it makes me upset, I cannot imagine what it feels like to actually do it.
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May 06, 2016, 11:28 PM
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Thanks for this.
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What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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May 07, 2016, 05:58 AM
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My fiancée had to give up his cat ( well he just had to give it to his ex in
divorce) and he struggled with it so much and still occasionally grieves over it. I lost a cat few years ago ( ran away) and I never got over it. It's understandable Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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May 07, 2016, 06:04 AM
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Thank you, divine.
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What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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May 07, 2016, 06:54 AM
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 Sorry you're hurting like this, seesaw ... I've grieved deeply the loss of my beloved pets more than I've grieved the losses of most humans in my life - including family! ... The reason why, I think, is because our furry four legged friends truly are the only ones that have ever loved us unconditionally.
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