I hate what I've become

I honestly don't understand how I have become bitter and disappointed. I was always someone with an open heart loving,confident I never thought I would grow up and be as closed minded to hate an entire gender when only a few of them hurt me. What about the other countless women threatening me with murder and cutting my hair off they are totally more pleasant then the boys calling me a mexican as a joke. In all my life I never thought I would be this bigoted and ignorant. Was I the one saying hating an entire gender of woman is ignorant isn't it the same for men as well. I honestly don't know what is up with me in all my life I have never known myself to be so bitter and closed minded in my life. I honestly hope this is just a faze because I hate who I am now and I want the people loving person I was that organized her shoes and loved her mother not this heartless self serving monster. BTW no boy has ever threatened me with murder so I don't understand this stupidity.

There is no growth w/o pain... there is no real learning w/o mistakes... for what that's worth.

yes growth pains hurt!!!you will be able to think more positively if you can talk it out with a t. they are really helpful and a good one won't judge.

I just miss hanging around males and having male friends they are nice people but then I went crazy because they didn't have feelings for me laddada still better then girls when they have their *****ing rants and you don't know if they are being nice but then laughing behind your back. I miss Teeg I miss real life.