stuck in a rut

Hi everyone. I haven't been using good coping skills for dealing with my emotions. I have been isolating myself in my house drinking and using so that I don't have to feel the negative emotions that surround me. I am Bipolar as well being an alcoholic and addict. I have gotten really bad in these last 2 months, I made some very bad financial transactions that I shouldn't have and now I am in over my head. My anxiety is to the top. So I drink and use so I don't have to think about the consequences of my behavior. That in itself doesn't even make sense. It only makes matter worse. I tried talking to my therapist about my situation and didn't get good results from her. The Mental Health Clinic where I go doesn't have a doctor working at the time in the clinic. I haven't seen a Psychiatrist for almost a year now and they haven't hired a new one. They told me to go to my primary care doctor to get refills on my Psych meds. I did do that and he did refill them for me. But I don't feel I am getting the proper treatment I need right now. Just yesterday I over dosed on Meth. I had to go to the hospital. I need help but I feel stuck. I am not even which help to seek first. I could use a detox I know. I also think I need to be in the mental Hospital. Any feedback or suggestions will be gratefully appreciated.

You seem to have good handle on why you are addicted. You post is well written and seems clean and sober as well. Thus you are on the road to recovery. Stay with your therapy, and be determined to heal.