Self sabotage!

I constantly put up a sabotaged version of myself in front of people. If someone likes me and want to be around,I just present myself as this cheap person or a slutty person or do something they can mock me about purposely and create a bad impression of myself! Then I regret it and shame takes over!

This has hurt me a lot in new situations where people do not know me. In a world full of people trying to put on a good impression,I seem to be an exception. I can't seem to stop this behavior.Is it because I don't know what my real self is?? I'm so frustrated with me putting myself down!

As a woman who struggles with self-esteem and self-sabotage, I can feel your frustration.

It becomes a conscious choice to change your negative thoughts. I have started yelling STOP at myself when I see how hurtful my thoughts are, hurtful to me. Who cares what others think, it's what you think about yourself that counts. And if I ever treated anyone else as badly as I treat myself, I would be angry and hurt. So why do I do it to myself? I've learned it somewhere and I am determined to unlearn it now.

Hugs to you - the first step in making changes it realizing that you want something to change.

Do try and get this book: "Addicted To Unhappiness" by
Martha and William J. Pieper. The culprit is in your subconscious,
which is why you don't know you are doing it to dear self;
it is a mistake we made when very young,but it is NOT your fault.
Blessings,
BLUEDOVE