[LifeInDarkness]

One rainy day 8 years ago I was rejected by a girl I liked at school (well she didn't say no she just ran past me after I confessed). I walked home and was beat up by 4 guys I didn't know that same afternoon, literally on my block 1 minute from my house.

On bad days I think how terrible I must be to have deserved that. Only in the past year, I have gotten the courage (or stupidity?) to go outside again to exercise regularly. Thankfully, I have not been beat up since then. Every time I go out, I am scared, but maybe I am an ok person now

[Kuras]

Being physically assaulted by someone doesn't equate to being a bad person.

I was in numerous physical altercations when I was younger but that tended to occur with individuals who plainly didn't like me.

[Frankbtl]

Hi LifeInDarkness

No, we're definitely talking courage in the last year!!!
So major kudos to you, I'm sure that took a lot for you to have made it outside to regularly exercise

And Kuras is absolutely right.........what happened doesn't need to mean that you were a bad person in any way
I do understand that it must have felt so "personal", that can be a natural thing to think, but you know that there are plenty of attacks that can be totally random, right??!!
And what gives four people (who also don't even know you!!) the right to do that to you??!!
LifeInDarkness, what they did wasn't right, so please, please, please don't try to justify their behaviour by taking the blame for why they did what they did
Now you have made massive steps by "re-entering the world" in going out..........but I'm just wondering if you may need a little more support with what happened to you??
If so..........maybe a "victims" support group, line or site...........maybe something like this:
Support our Work ??

What happened to you does not have to define who you were/are or how you live your life, with the right support (if you need it) whether that support is on here or out there..........you have come so far and you didn't deserve what happened to you.........so keep focused on the recovery, hey??

Alison

I feel a sense of hope and pride (which is wrong but it's like a collective pride, I guess...) when I hear about stories of courage like this one.

I would give a standing ovation if you were here.

Thank you.

[Stuck1nhead]

You have bad days and real bad days. That would be a real bad day. I have never been beaten up before in my life. I honestly couldn't stand for it if it happened too me.

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First of all kudos to you for having the courage to go outside and exercise. You feel fearful doing it and that's natural, but you're facing fear and doing something that's good for yourself. That's really great!

I've been beaten by a family member as a kid, never by strangers, but cruelty certainly leaves its mark. Please remember you didn't deserve to be treated that way.

[Unrigged64072835]

You're not a bad person for getting beat up. It's not your fault.

Glad to see you are facing your fears and going outside again.