[nothingsintheflower]

Hi,

So I am a college student who suffers from Bipolar I Disorder. My triggers are relationships.

I became interested in someone who went to study abroad the day after we first hung out. We were talking and planning on possibly beginning a relationship until I freaked out at him when I had suggested we stop talking to not complicate things with his ex, and he agreed.

My friends went up to him (without my knowledge) at a party last night, as he is back from studying abroad and everyone is back from the summer, and he said that he wants no contact with me.

I feel like I'm falling; I have a pit in my stomach, my heart hurts, my body aches, all I want to do is sleep and I can barely find the energy to do my work, or the brain space to do it, either; i keep obsessing over him. Not the idea of being in a relationship, but rather the fact that he doesn't even want to be friends.

And this has happened before.

I end up in the hospital, scraping to get through with my grades.

I honestly can't any longer.

I don't know what to do.

I have a psychiatrist and a therapist I meet with regularly.

Please help.

Thanks

-L

[Skeezyks]

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