[anushka]

Hi

At this point, its a everyday struggle for me to cope with everything....i am just not being to handle everything that's going on and the emotions i am feeling. The feelings of fear, worthlessness, i-am-not-good-enough feelings, anxiety, depression, hopelessness that have added up bit by bit over years seem to have come to the verge now.

there's a lot to handle, loads to do but i am not being able to balance anything. I feel so helpless. Like i am in a cobweb. Like everything is so tangled and i dont know how to get back on track.

And there's this one after the other sleepless nights and crying to myself. Cant remember the last time i slept well. This gnawing fear and anxiety all the time

i could do with a bit of help, but i cant seem to find any. Everyday i wake up to feeling i dont know what to do, how to settle everything and move ahead. Endless train of messy thinking, feels like i have no way out.

i dont know if anyone's going to read. If you did, thank you for taking your time and reading this.

[Skeezyks]

}}} anushka {{{