It hurts how my mom keeps bringing up the fact that i self harmed. She uses what i did to satisfy her sick need of satisfaction and pleasure she gets when seeing me hurt. Its hard to move on like this…

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm really sorry, Dax..

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My father reminds me of my past self-harming. Though he isn't doing so to rub my nose in it or hurt me. It usually comes up as reference to my previously being in the lowest of the low as comparison to my relative good health. Look, self harming for me was about wanting to get noticed - wanting people to see the pain I was going through. The fact that my father talks about it today is only natural considering I had wanted him to notice when it was done.

Originally Posted by justafriend306

My father reminds me of my past self-harming. Though he isn't doing so to rub my nose in it or hurt me. It usually comes up as reference to my previously being in the lowest of the low as comparison to my relative good health. Look, self harming for me was about wanting to get noticed - wanting people to see the pain I was going through. The fact that my father talks about it today is only natural considering I had wanted him to notice when it was done.

My mom doesnt do it to remind me "kindly." She brings it up suddenly and makes it into a joke.

Is it possible she brings it up in such a manner stems from her being uncomfortable about it. People commonly giggle or laugh when they have to talk about subjects that are difficult for them.

Regardless, it is causing pain and shouldn't be happening. Are you two close enought that you can talk about it? Is she aware of your feelings on this matter?

[Frankbtl]

Hi DaX15,

I am so sorry about the way she's behaving towards you, it must be really hurtful
But when she's seeming to get satisfaction...........just keep reminding yourself.........that she doesn't even know the half of it does she!?!?
If she had any true idea or understanding of what you must have felt/experienced at the time then she wouldn't be using it so much as a joke.
And I don't know whether you'd feel able to, or could give her a "reality check" on how you really felt/feel or not.........maybe something to think about..........but remember she isn't laughing at the real situation because she doesn't get the real situation.
And whether you can or can't wake her up to it..............it's OK, that's her problem if she continues..........there will be people on here who do get it, who do genuinely care about what you've been through and are going through and who are here for you

Alison

Originally Posted by Frankbtl

Hi DaX15,

I am so sorry about the way she's behaving towards you, it must be really hurtful
But when she's seeming to get satisfaction...........just keep reminding yourself.........that she doesn't even know the half of it does she!?!?
If she had any true idea or understanding of what you must have felt/experienced at the time then she wouldn't be using it so much as a joke.
And I don't know whether you'd feel able to, or could give her a "reality check" on how you really felt/feel or not.........maybe something to think about..........but remember she isn't laughing at the real situation because she doesn't get the real situation.
And whether you can or can't wake her up to it..............it's OK, that's her problem if she continues..........there will be people on here who do get it, who do genuinely care about what you've been through and are going through and who are here for you

Alison

Thank you so much

[Skeezyks]