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***Trigger Warning***

I feel I'm lost. I need to find myself. To find my path in this life. I struggle to follow the paved and wide roads of this life. I need to find my purpose to live before I'm visited by the angel of death. Am I thinking too much? Shall I just shut my thinking and follow the group? I don't know, but money means nothing to me. Travel means nothing to me. Luxury means nothing to me. I'm reluctant to get married and have children while in this state. Helping others you might say. But is this our purpose? To help each others until we pass away? I mean, it's nice and feels good momentarily, but we soon to return to our misery. In the grand scheme of things we are still trapped. Life will betray us. It is unfaithful. We cling to it, but it will abandon us. Hermits and monks leave life before it leaves them, but I'm too weak to endure the entailed hardships of leaving life before I die. I feel I have no choice. I want to be free, but all we get is to be trapped in a mortal and weak body.

[Thunder Bow]

Avoid the wide paved roads. On the black road you will rush by everything and learn nothing. Take the good Red Read of life. It is long and wines about, but you will learn much on your journey.

[MickeyCheeky]

I wish you good luck in finding your path..

[avlady]

your journey may be hard to get through at times, but i believe after being through so much in my life, the sun does shine through my heart somehow.

[bearguardian]

Hermit is my dominant card. Im also a fool on a journey. And inner priestess. Travel with caution and good luck. Its more of a dark labyrinth then a road.

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

... On the black road you will rush by everything and learn nothing. ...

Actually, this is how I feel. I'm running in life with no purpose. I feel I'm being pushed to conform to society's view. To follow the group. There is no time to find oneself. Run to school. Run to College. Run to Work. Run to marriage. Run to have children. Then they will repeat the same race. Running through this cycle of life, to be just a link in the chain of life. Is this all what life is all about?

Thanks all for the replies