[JennaWadde99]

when I had just turned 15,I remember my Dad telling me that he wanted to buy me clothes so he was going to take my measurements with a tape. So he bought a pen ,pad and measure tape.I didn't think anything out of it.I don't remember what lead to this but I now get a vivid flash back of me being topless with just an underwear on.At some point he squeezed my breast and put his hand in my underwear to feel the top of my vagina. I think this incident of him undressing me to take measurement of the clothes he supporsedly wanted to buy happened few times until one day he approached me me again to take my measurements but he still hadn't bought the clothes so I told him forget it..but he still demanded I get undress even though I was clearly annoyed ..at that incident,he tried taking my underwear off but I pulled his hands away. I don't recall this happening again because I was obviously upset.Needlessly to say he never bought the clothes.

Another incident was when he told me thathe wanted to see if my eczema on my back was getting worse.I said no it's fine .He got angry and said "YOUR MOM ISN'T HERE I'M THE ONE WHO CHECK THESE THINGS"(My mom was back in Africa at that time)My parents got divorced when we were little and my dad has remarried. He demanded I undress down to underwear and lay on the bed to check my eczema. nothing happened after that.

Another incident was when I was sitting alone in on the bed reading .Then he came in and sat close to me without saying a word.My step sister who was 6 at that time followed him and stood in front of the door.He immediately got up and left my room,only to return few minutes later when my step sister left.As soon as he came back my step sister followed him again.At that point he gave up and left me alone.

The final incident was when he was heading for a shower and he knocked on my door,asked me to rub his back. I said No and told him he should ask his wife to do that not me.He tried to convince me that wasn't a big deal but I stood my ground.I don't remember anything that happened after these incidents or the dates ..other than these vivid flash backs of this incidents.

I no longer live at home and these memories I repressed are starting to resurface.I'm starting to harbor resentment and strong hatred towards my fatherI'm thinking to cut him off out of my life .would that be wrong of me?I also book an appointment to see a therapist. Just looking for opinions.

[Skeezyks]

Im so sorry. That is a very good idea to see a therapist, i hope that helps you cope. And no it is not wrong for wanting him out of your life at this point that is what you need.
Best wishes and stay safe.

[avlady]

i would see a therapist if i were you. there are probably more things that happened that are in your subconcious too.

[MickeyCheeky]

A therapist is definitely reccomended.. these things can scar for life.

Also, I think a trigger warning for this thread is necessary..

[crimsoncat]

I think any past abuse is obviously horrendous but if the abuser is a family member it adds so many extra complicated emotional issues that it is probably essential for your wellbeing that you seek help x

[Thunder Bow]

You were violated, thus resentment was justified. Therapy will help you deal with the pain and anger around this, and help you heal from this.

[it'sgrowtime]

it would NOT be wrong of you to cut him out of your life. I empathize with your pain. This is your life and you have the right to your boundaries. Be well!

[MooseMoose]

Not particularly. I plan on cutting my parents out of my life too, as soon as I finish university and get a job. If they hurt you, then you don't like them much anymore. Your dad is not worth your time.