I'm a survivor of emotional neglect, and well, throughout my formative years I never learned how to categorize or label my emotions, and as a result I struggle very hard with multiple issues. I need help to navigate the intricate roads of emotional recognition...But I'm not sure how to ask anyone for help. I mean its kind of silly to go to a therapist and say "hey you, tell me what I'm feeling", because in my honest opinion, they wouldn't be able to guess either. I feel very complex things all at once and it makes it impossible to make rational decisions. I went through a large phase of my youth where I honestly did not feel anything at all. Joy, sadness, remorse, anger, excitement, etc. I thought I was a sociopath for so long and that terrified my subconscious. But after some severe life experiences and dramatic shifting, I now feel it all again. All at once. All the time. And I NEVER know how to handle it. Or what it means. It completely inhibits my thinking processes and I get into this rut where I'm still able to function, but just barely....

[childofchaos831]

What you describe is honestly so close to my own life, it's kind of eerie. I had emotional neglect growing up, and still now as I still live with that parent. I never learned properly how to identify my own emotions, and the only emotion I could really identify in someone else was anger or disappointment. I also had a time where I thought I may be a sociopath, for the same reason as you. I had learned, very early, that dissociating from it all was much more comfortable than believing my own parent could be like that.

I developed c-PTSD and DID (multiple personalities) because of this, which is hard to explain to people (meaning professionals), because their response is usually along the lines of "being distant and emotionally unavailable isn't abuse." When you are a toddler, it sure a hell can feel like abuse, and my toddler brain reacted like an abused child.

Years into therapy, I still have a really difficult time with emotions. The only thing that has helped me are these sheets of paper that I would ask for in group IOP, that have the faces on them. Under each face is the name of the emotion it is showing. I learned to identify how I was feeling with these. Other than that, I was either good or bad. I'd get frustrated when a T would ask for something more descriptive. I didn't know.

Even now, without being able to look at one of those papers (you can also find some images of them on Google, keyword emotion faces sheet, or something similar), I am still limited to happy, sad, afraid, and angry. The main thing is that I have learned, over the years, words for different levels of these. For example, glum and depressed are both sadness, just different severity, and frustration and rage are levels of anger. I started using a scale system with my pdoc on certain things. Zero to ten. Zero is none and ten is worst possible. Anxiety (fear) and depression/suicidal thoughts are the first things we started using it for, and it's helped to give him an idea of where I am without having to identify anything more than fear or sadness.

Hope this helps in some way.

[Sunflower123]

I suffered CEN as well and it has caused so many problems in my life. I sometimes can't handle the intensity of my emotions....I am a highly sensitive person. The right therapist could really help you work through this. The emotion list that the previous poster mentioned is also helpful. You're not alone. I hope you can get this resolved. Thinking of you.....

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

What you describe is honestly so close to my own life, it's kind of eerie. I had emotional neglect growing up, and still now as I still live with that parent. I never learned properly how to identify my own emotions, and the only emotion I could really identify in someone else was anger or disappointment. I also had a time where I thought I may be a sociopath, for the same reason as you. I had learned, very early, that dissociating from it all was much more comfortable than believing my own parent could be like that.

I developed c-PTSD and DID (multiple personalities) because of this, which is hard to explain to people (meaning professionals), because their response is usually along the lines of "being distant and emotionally unavailable isn't abuse." When you are a toddler, it sure a hell can feel like abuse, and my toddler brain reacted like an abused child.

Years into therapy, I still have a really difficult time with emotions. The only thing that has helped me are these sheets of paper that I would ask for in group IOP, that have the faces on them. Under each face is the name of the emotion it is showing. I learned to identify how I was feeling with these. Other than that, I was either good or bad. I'd get frustrated when a T would ask for something more descriptive. I didn't know.

Even now, without being able to look at one of those papers (you can also find some images of them on Google, keyword emotion faces sheet, or something similar), I am still limited to happy, sad, afraid, and angry. The main thing is that I have learned, over the years, words for different levels of these. For example, glum and depressed are both sadness, just different severity, and frustration and rage are levels of anger. I started using a scale system with my pdoc on certain things. Zero to ten. Zero is none and ten is worst possible. Anxiety (fear) and depression/suicidal thoughts are the first things we started using it for, and it's helped to give him an idea of where I am without having to identify anything more than fear or sadness.

Hope this helps in some way.

I'm sorry to hear you had similar experiences growing up. It is a very difficult situation to be in at such a young age because you are aware that there are others going through more serious types of abuse that you don't bring attention to yours out of fear of judgements. Or at least that was basically the case for me.
However, we do differ vastly in one aspect. I never had any difficulty recognizing emotional affects of other people. I simply just did not know how to categorize my own emotions. When I first started to be able to feel emotions again, the main one I felt all the time, or so I thought, was anger. I'd get hurt, I'd get angry. I'd get scared, I'd get angry. I'd get nervous, I'd get angry. It was a cycle for a couple years until I realized it was an unhealthy defense mechanism still functioning from my dysfunctional past. Now I am able to start labeling my emotions as soon as I feel them, and not have to go through a lull period of automatic self defense before I could figure them out.
Looking at pictures of faces doesn't really offer much help for me because I know what emotions are and how to recognize them in others and determine their severity. I just didn't know how to recognize and decipher what each sensation actually meant to me. I could feel sad, either or a lot or a little, but for awhile I wasn't able to tell the difference between the two. But with experience came understanding and eventually change. Not feeling any emotions literally left me as a blank slate to interpreting them within myself. And years of defense mechanisms and bad coping skills only made it more difficult to figure out on my own later in life. For me, the best help was experience and time. I'm sure therapy would have been very beneficial during that time, but it just was not accessible for me then.

[MickeyCheeky]

Sorry you feel this way. Must be really hard I'd still give a therapist a try, though. Perhaps one who'd able to teach you how to recognize and address your own emotions..