[Chocopiano27]

I was in an all girl school in my high school years and it was the worst 3 years of my life, I become distant with all my high school friends. And I've always distant myself with girls, but I know I crave a group of female friends. I just want to be like other girls.

It has been 2 years, but every time I talk about high school I'd still feel so alone and helpless. I feel like I have no friends and everyone is just so different compared to me. And I seem to always trying to forget everything that happened in the past. I'd hate to see them in my social media, I'd hate it to hear their names being mentioned, I'd be very scared and would be in panic (I'd just freeze and suddenly become quiet) if i have to face them again in real life.

I can't seem to move on from those experience. I'd even try to forget my 'friends' in high school and try to detach all kind of contact with them. Whenever i chat or meet them i would turn fake and just smile while from the inside I'm filled with anxiety and will always want to run away.

I'm really sick of being that way, and it's been very hard for me. How do you get rid of this feeling? I just want to feel free. I'd been to therapist and all that, but when it comes to my high school memory things just don't seem to get better.

[Sunflower123]

Did something happen to make you feel this way?