It is obvious to me i feel badly about myself. This is something my therapist wants me to work on. So do I. But I also want to work (get a job). I actually don't though, because I cannot decide for the life of me what kind of job. I have thought about office work. I have also thought about translation. Being an artist. And really, I just don't know. and really, I don't want to work. But I have to. And it STRESSES ME THE **** OUT. I'm sick of being alone with this, too. I feel horrible. It bothers me. It is something that bothers me.

I so hear you on this one. I'm lucky in that I'm on sick leave at the moment, but I'm constantly dreading the moment I have to start looking for a job again.. I hope it's not for a time yet as I don't feel well enough.

I've also racked my brain as to what it is I'd like to and would be able to do what with my health not being top-notch.. I'm finding I need to get out of my head and take a very honest look at what the jobs I have in mind really entail. For the longest time, I also thought I'd like to be a writer or an artist of some kind.. But I've realised I don't want to be judged and criticized on those things. What I enjoy about them is just letting things out and not having to worry about what other people will think of the outcome - for me, that'd suck all the joy out of it. I've also realised I need a promise of at least a relatively steady income because having to wonder and worry about whether I can make ends meet makes me incredibly anxious, and I don't want that kind of stress in my life. For the same reason, I'm opting out of becoming a carer for animals, something I'd otherwise love to do - but I can realize that dream by having pets

My former therapist once told me I should follow what I'm passionate about. I think I've finally determined my passion is helping others - now I need to figure out what that means exactly in terms of what to study, and how I can achieve it with the limitations my health places on my life.

Figuring these things out can require a lot of work, and I definitely don't think you should have to go through it alone. If you have the chance to see a career counselor or something like that, please do! They can be a great help I wish you the best of luck in your quest!

Also, if you're in a position where you don't absolutely need to find a job at this very minute, do give yourself time to work on feeling better about yourself like your therapist has suggested. It'll help clear your mind on what you'd like and would be able to do with your life, too

[Sunflower123]

ShareYourStory has some excellent points. Good luck with your decision. Best wishes.