Can't think of my future

introspectiveme · Jul 18, 2017, 06:16 PM

I have a job, and I'm lucky. I am successful enough and have never had problems at work.

I have been fighting depression everyday for the past 8-10 years at least. It's relentless, I have very little hope.

Lately I've been focusing exclusively on other people's problems. Sometimes I feel bad because I can't do more for other people, but other times I feel happy to be able to do whatever help I can for them.

But when I think about myself, and my future, my mind just says "no". It's almost like I've worried so much about myself in the past with no improvements that I don't have any hope left.

Here's the thing, when I am talking to my friends, I can think about them, but it's not possible for me to talk to my friends all the time. When I am alone, I sit here feeling uncomfortable because I remember that my life also needs fixing and I should have goals too.

Hope someone understands. Thank you all.

Sunflower123 · Jul 19, 2017, 02:57 AM

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Have you been evaluated by a pdoc? Do you take medication? Do you see a therapist? All of these things could be helpful to you. It's really nice that you care and try to help your friends with their problems (the world needs more kind people like you) but you matter as well. Best wishes.

introspectiveme · Jul 19, 2017, 03:30 AM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Have you been evaluated by a pdoc? Do you take medication? Do you see a therapist? All of these things could be helpful to you. It's really nice that you care and try to help your friends with their problems (the world needs more kind people like you) but you matter as well. Best wishes.

Thank you , I do see a therapist but I'm only now realizing all my other issues are related to my depression somehow.

Thank you so much.