Pain.

I have been hurt. So much. I'm sick of being hurt. I'm sick of being attracted to unhealthy situations and people. I'm sick of feeling so lonely and disconnected that I'd do anything (unhealthy) to make it stop. I have been harmed so much. I know this sounds like victim mentality (and I hate that I feel like I have to apologize for my pain). I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm a ****ing wreck.

I relate. Pain up to my ears! Moment after moment. Hurtful .

I can relate and I can relate well.
I hope there was something I could do to ease your pain. I guess all i can say is that: we all crave love and care; we all crave genuine emotional connections. Lets try our best and not look for them in wrong people and places.
I am sorry you are hurting

Never apologize for your pain. I'm so sorry you have been hurt and I know how it feels. Its okay to be a wreck, we are here for you.

I can relate . Please don’t give up on finding good, healthier people and situations, they are out there (I know from personal experience )

You didn't deserve it.

I know. Thank you.