[jeanrachael]

I find it very difficult to manage my anger with my family lately. I'm 22 years old and I live at home still. I grew up in a somewhat tense environment during my teen years. When I was 14 years old, my father was diagnosed with a terminal illness. I can pinpoint possible reasons why I have such resentment still towards my family: 1) My mom spent most of my teen years taking care of my father rather than being an actual mother to me. She couldn't help it. I know that. I know it's also hard to prioritize in that kind of situation. 2) When my father was initially diagnosed with his illness, he fell into a very deep depression which resulted in verbal abuse from him. This verbal abuse, especially during such a pivotal time in my life, resulted in me struggling with an eating disorder for 4 years. It wasn't until I moved out and went to college that I was able to begin healing and treating myself. '

These things are all a part of the past and I feel that my parents have both tried incredibly hard to make up for this lost time, however I find my anger around them to be uncontrollable most of the time. When I am home, I am constantly angry and annoyed at them. I treat them badly and I am aware of this. I just can't control it and I don't know what to do at this point. I can consciously acknowledge that it's wrong but I need strategies to manage this.