How are you coping today?

Sorry to hear this, hope you can catch whoever did it!

deffenetly one of those days where you just think what's the point?

why am I here?

I honestly don't know why things are so bad half the time, I think half the time I'm just fed up of life and thinking... oh not again, and half the time
i just focus on all my regrets

like today.. not really much of a reason to be depressed,

but you know... today I sat in a chair and filled up on junkfood

go me. where's my medal. that sort of thing

I am coping but I feel stifled, I have been indoors all day and I could probably do with some fresh air and getting out but I will be indoors until I go to the theatre on Sunday evening.It is still only Tuesday!

By reminding myself that I am doing everything I can an am supposed to do. It’s management and the other departments fault that we are not gettting things done today.

barely functioned today.

what else can I say.. I really didn't get anything done apart from eat

My brain is frustrating sometimes lol

very depressed yesterday,

to depressed to even come on here

managed to shower and to use some of my new perfume though

feel a little better today but not much (but wanted to come on here, felt so bad for not doing it yesterday)

listening to christmas music

I've not coped well,

so much time to do things but so much of it wasted

I watched a christmas movie but blacked out and don't remember it (I think I remember some of it), but not much of it

Nisht gut

my day has been quite boring, with the only exciting part (or semi excting part), watching muppet's christmas carol

I love that movie

still... just feel blah

not really sure why- just my life sucks I guess

I am sleepy today but am coping relatively well,the trick is done when you aren't just coping but thriving.

Today was horrible and I didn't cope well at all, but now I'm glad all of that is over. Until next time of course.

once again circumstances have got in the way of things... today I was actually meant to go to town to see the switching on of the christmas lights

but it's not happening, and honestly, not sure much is.

apart from having a gross shower this morning, I'm just sat here listening to music- and that's how it will probably remain for the day

Well. Though I've had a lot to do today, I got up early and got on with stuff so now I've done most of it. Less to think about doing.

I guess I am coping today, but I don't have the mo joe to do much.

coping okay.

on saturday I had a papa john's takeout pizza which was lovely. sat on the sofa with my legs spread out on my kittycat rug enjoying it with little britain on tv. it was lovely

yesterday I had roast lamb which wasn't that good, but I did have some yummy peach juice which was good

apart from that been the usual coutch potato. litirally nothing to report.

but I've been coping okay and that'ss what counts. who cares I've not realy donem uch- it'sn ot through lack of motivation this time, through nothing to do

I had to take some things off my todo list because I couldn't fit them all in. That has relieved some stress but I still need to do those things another day (probably tomorrow).

I never thought I would say these words in the same sentance, but I wish I had a to do list

absolutely nothing needs doing though- so I'm wasting my good mood on listening to songs from the 60's (which I hate, by the way)

I’m sad my FOO is so toxic I wrote them all off. I’m happy to be seeing my husband and kids all together for Thanksgiving this week.

Snap Trish my FOO is toxic too and I went 100% no contact last friday!
I am alone though no husband or kids.

I was scared of today,I had the carpet cleaners booked to come clean my pile,I had to move furniture and hoover at 8am,and I had to force myself to wake up at that time.

I coped and it all got done and furniture put back.I have been so depressed though and upset after last weekend and the abuse my narcs doled out at me again,it is like forever that they have been emotionally,physically and mentally violent towards me.

My sister narc is deffo not contacting me again but my mother,she will at some point and I have to tell her I don't want to know her.Not looking forward to that.I am thinking of changing my phone number but wondering if it will cost and if its difficult to do.

It occurs to me though my mother might not bother to ring me,she used to want me to ring her five times a day to check if carers turn up for her and if they don't she'd want me to text my sister cos mum is blind and can't dial the phone.But I won't be able to text my sister for her if I am no contact with my sister,so unless she wants to use me to meet any of her other needs she won't be contacting me,she doesn't like me to not talk to my sister.If she cared about me and how I was doing she could have asked her carers to dial my number for her,but I am 100% sure now that she doesn't care about me and she kept me on a leash to look after her own selfish needs.So even if she rings and pretends to care,it is not true,she doesn't care,God has opened my eyes,I realise now that both narcs have been using me since my dad died,bullying me into doing their bidding,using my intellect for their own gain.I don't want to know either of them,like Trish says I have had to bin them off.

I really wish that people would just stop asking me questions

I hate when people ask me questions because it makes me irritated and anxious.

and these questions have quite clear answers, no!

get a ****ing grip. you know the answers, don't ask the ****ing questions

questions like why don't you wear a coat or a hat?

I'll tell you why because it's ****ing restricting. I like my body to breav

the radio station I listen to needs to stop playing music by rod steuart

I know they don't know.. they have no way of knowing, but it's a massive ****ing trigger

I turn the music down so I don't have to listen to it, but still

showered so naturally feeling gross

also pretty much the same sinario... things that I planned to do fell through so actually doing nothing today with my time.

feel depressed but I suppose it could be worse. this morning I got a perfume delivered to my door (a new one I ordered), I guess a light in the dark..

Not good. Not much sleep due to noise has made it hard for me to do much today, and I had quite a lot to do. Getting stressed very easily. Was worse this morning though, has calmed down now.