[lowpoint]

Desorganised thinking. Trying to keep my sht together til the end of the year, keep going to work, btw someone at work betrayed me, he said something about me that really shouldnt have. I feel disappointed and paranoid, these days have been rollercoasters and full of anxiety inducing situations and i used to rely on this peson, now today confirmed why he has distanced himself from me - he cant stand me depressed and doesnt understand me. Looks like some ppl go, some new ones come. Ive been struggling with my thoughts lately, my support at work gets pissed off all the time because i cant explain stuff well to her -- should i tell her about my disorganised thinking? Maybe that way she understands. I feel lucid some days, but days like today make me feel plain stupid. I blew up my chances with my love interest and now i will just let go, cant stand this no more

[lowpoint]

Also i am self destructing myself again as i spent all my cash on useless junk and now i have no money at all, little to eat. But i cant tell anyone about this, they would make an intervention or something and i need to work bc i have plans of going away, far away. Its 6.34 already, i should go, at least i am sleepy atm. Sorry the awful writing I am on my phone and tired and a bit nervous, sure.

[MickeyCheeky]

((((lowpoint)))) I'm so sorry you're struggling so badly. Do you see a therapist?

[mote.of.soul]

Thanks for sharing, lowpoint.

Things are obviously difficult for you right now, I'm sorry about that, but I just wanted to say, yes, keep your goals as the the main focus through it all, and continue to maintain a sense of belief in yourself - those are two things which have helped me to keep my head above the water, as my life isn't great either[!].

Keep sharing as well, lowpoint. It will be interesting to see how things go for you.

You're doing well!