This what bothers me. I'm capable of doing things, but I don't have a reason to. I have no motivation. I think it stems from the fact that my life has been meaningless, even when I had more energy and was doing things things, and had a more positive outlook. Others are better not because they are smarter, but because they have more energy and motivation, and more resilient to life's failures. This gives me a feeling of anger, sadness, and self-pity. I don't know how to overcome this lack of motivation as I know I will fail again when I try again.

[stewartmays1]

yeah every day is the same and it often feals as tho thier is nothing to get up or fight for i have been in the same boat for years maybe you just need to sit down and make a plan and go for it because if you dont try then nothing will ever change

Originally Posted by Aimless Soul

This what bothers me. I'm capable of doing things, but I don't have a reason to. I have no motivation. I think it stems from the fact that my life has been meaningless, even when I had more energy and was doing things things, and had a more positive outlook. Others are better not because they are smarter, but because they have more energy and motivation, and more resilient to life's failures. This gives me a feeling of anger, sadness, and self-pity. I don't know how to overcome this lack of motivation as I know I will fail again when I try again.

Hugs to you, Aimless Soul. I do not think anyone is better than anyone else, just because they have a more positive outlook or more energy or more motivation. What you are dealing with sounds A LOT like depression. It messes with one's thoughts. It's a distortion and untrue. Depression lies. Are you in therapy? There's also many books on depression out there. Or perhaps try looking at this: Coping with Depression: Tips for Overcoming Depression One Step at a Time Best to you.

I have registered in some online courses to develop some skills that might help me land a job. I cannot force myself to study, which is basically watching videos. My heart starts bounding fast, my breathe becomes short, I feel my knees become weak, and feel nauseous. They say motivation comes when you see glimpses of of what could be. I don't see that. Yes, probably it's depression, but I wasn't like this before. Life's experiences have made me believe I'm a failure.