[DechanDawa]

I wonder if the holidays are not healthy.

I have had some beautiful holidays...but also a lot of very sad or crazy holidays.

Guess because I feel depressed I am remembering a lot of bad holidays.

You know those holidays...where someone gets drunk and ruins it for everyone.

The saddest was...someone I knew...their Christmas tree caught fire and they died in the fire.

Don't remember the details. Just that it was so awful.

I just want to skip to...the new year.


Meanwhile I am going to go mail my packages today and I think go out for lunch.

I hope you have a nice christmas and enjoy what you can of it.
honestly for me, because I don't have any family to celebrate with, the holidays are nothing special- I'll maybe put up a few decorations, cook myself a turkey, buy myself a few gifts from amazon (yes I know, it's sad buying my own presents), and that is usually that

as for bad memories of christmas, their was one year where I was in hospital over the holidays and I actually

Possible trigger:

tried to take my life

it obviously didn't work, because I'm here now- but I came so close, the nurses thought I'd not survive the night.

and as for new year, well, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. I usually dread new year- it gives me the perfect excuse to look back on the last 12 month and think, wow, nothing's changed, I'm still a mess- and it's a big guilt trip from start to end

[DechanDawa]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I hope you have a nice christmas and enjoy what you can of it.
honestly for me, because I don't have any family to celebrate with, the holidays are nothing special- I'll maybe put up a few decorations, cook myself a turkey, buy myself a few gifts from amazon (yes I know, it's sad buying my own presents), and that is usually that

as for bad memories of christmas, their was one year where I was in hospital over the holidays and I actually

Possible trigger:

tried to take my life

it obviously didn't work, because I'm here now- but I came so close, the nurses thought I'd not survive the night.

and as for new year, well, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. I usually dread new year- it gives me the perfect excuse to look back on the last 12 month and think, wow, nothing's changed, I'm still a mess- and it's a big guilt trip from start to end

That's very sad you ended up in the hospital on the holiday. However, it sounded like it was the right place for you to be at the time. You got the help you needed.

I have been calling crisis hotlines on the weekends but I am trying to get away from doing that ...as they don't really help. They just help me remember coping skills I already have in my magical tool bag.


Let's pull out all our coping skills and use them today. Thanks for your kind words. Take extra special care this holiday season and yes, keep everything quiet and simple, that is a good plan for me, too!

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're struggling, DechanDawa Holidays are hard for a lot of people here. You're definitely not alone in this. I hope you'll have a nice, quiet, simple Christmas. Nothing too fancy, just having a good time hoping that the next year will be even better. Please stay safe and take care of yourself. Let us know if there's any trouble. Also remember that we'll be here for you when you need us. Feel free to share and vent here. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

[Ford Puma]

I hope things work out as well as they can for you dechandawa. Christmas is not always the nice time of the year that the TV insists on telling us about. Sometimes things go wrong. What can a person do... I can only say do ones best. No more can be expected.

[DechanDawa]

Originally Posted by Ford Puma

I hope things work out as well as they can for you dechandawa. Christmas is not always the nice time of the year that the TV insists on telling us about. Sometimes things go wrong. What can a person do... I can only say do ones best. No more can be expected.

Sweet. Thanks. I love your profile pix.