Never feel like I fit in

I’m definitely more tuned in with finding like-minded souls as I get older. I was caught up in more superficial things at one time and it leads to nowhere.

Thanks Mickey. PC is a quiet and peaceful refuge for me.

Thank you for your sympathy for my loss of Leo❤. He was actually a huge part of helping me learn to be myself & to fit in. His little dog life really revealed so much to me. He was a city dog when I moved with him across the country to my farm, leaving our old life behind. He had a curiosity to investigate everything to the fullest & he was so proud of himself when he would bring me his finds (no matter how disgusting they were). He got himself bit by a mole he was chasing & it never dampened his desire to investigate everything he found. He had a love for life that totally wore off on me & has become my new normal.

He was always wise around new people he didn't know. He was very guarded until he could sense that they were ok & if he never sensed it he would not let them touch him.

We both had moved to a new town 2100 miles away from where we had always lived & we knew no one when we moved here. It was like getting to write a new life book if we got new words & ideas to write it with & observing his life & letting it become a total part of mine gave me that ability to start with. Finding an outstanding T 3 years later helped me learn skills I had not learned which gave me the ability to integrate the past with the present & give me the understanding of WHY the past was the way it was while learning who the real me was. The me who now was not always having to react to the dysfunctional people in my family I had been surrounded by. I hadn't even realized the high level of anxiety I had lived in all my life until I finally experienced peace. It was hard to fit in when one is always on guard to your environment. I fit in OK (not well) in my career because my family environment was always there even when I was away.....but it did give me a glimpse that there was something more inside of me than what was so overshadowed by the peoples dysfunctions I was been living around. I was finally able to uncover & discover that me

I realised at art class when I was bullied yesterday how badly I fitted into the group there and how unhappy it can make me to feel surrounded by people who are hostile and indifferent to me and who act superior.It has made me see that forcing myself to fit in and belong somewhere that I don't really belong and never will is a mistake.I hope that never happens to me again it was an unpleasant experience.The fact that I attended two session and completed the work expected of me shows me I can do it but don't have to especially seeing as the tutor joined in bullying me with the other bullies.It is not my fault that I had to withdraw from the course and I am glad I prioritised my emotional safety and spoke to the man in charge about how the tutor behaved.But not fitting in somewhere is such an unpleasant experience and can affect your self esteem and confidence badly.

Was Leo a Samoyed?
I loved to know your story with Leo. It’s incredible the role that pets may play.

You stood for yourself and this is huge. Still I can’t understand what takes a group of people (like a wolves’ pack) to bully another person.

Leo was a good boy. You were lucky to have him. We miss these babies when we leave us. They’re our family.

Leo was an American Eskimo. Before their breed was recognized by the UKC & AKC (United Kennel Club & American KC) they were known as the german spitz dog.

Yes pets that we closely bond with can play a huge role in our lives. He was never trained as a service or companion dog but he had the heart for it from birth. He was the only male in the litter & everyone wanted female eskies that Christmas. I felt bad that he was the only one left with all his playmates gone so he came up to me bedroom & stayed with me. At 3 months old he rode on my lap to our winter vacation condo in Wyo where I ended up with pneumonia. He never left my side & the bond was established. That was 4 years before I finally left my H & we both traveled to the farm I bought (with his help too). He had flown here with me to find a farm & he flew back with me when the purchase was final the next month. That was when he really taught me so much about living & enjoying life & learning how to fit into your environment without losing who you really are.

Yes, they give people a lot, as long as you respect their nature.
My doggies also helped me a lot with my social anxiety and even feel a sort of sense of fitting in some places.

I loved to know about the labour many working doggies do and how doggies and kitties are used as therapy animals.
They are simple, truthful and the pack is everything for them.

I am so glad you found similar help with your doggies. They are a wonderful part of our lives.....that can be any fur baby not just dogs

Yes all the time! I'm told that no one like me and is hated.

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He looks amazing,he was a good looking dog,you can see the love in his eyes and I can hear how much you loved and admired him,it is so good and I am happy for you that you had a faithful companion and an amazing friend in Leo.Animals love is special in that it is loyal and unconditional and animals are sweet and innocent and need our protection,when we bond with our four legged friends they give us something that is irreplaceable and so when we lose them we are bereft.I am sorry for your loss,I am sure though that you have wonderful memories of Leo.

I agree. I feel like this all the time.