[blue592]

I went on a date with a guy the other night and I actually ended up liking him. Now I feel super sad and lonely. Whenever I like someone, even the slightest bit it always surfaces as depression and hopelessness. I'm a very sensitive person so I guess even meeting someone once is enough time to send me into this emotional spiral if the right connection is there. I've never had a boyfriend and no one I've ever had feelings for has surfaced in a relationship, leaving me heartbroken every time it happens. I'm only 26 so still young, but I don't get what I'm doing wrong. I've come to just automatically associate having feelings for someone with sadness and disappointment. I'm starting to feel like I'm not deserving of love. Life just seems to keep playing this cruel trick on me. It gives me the hope that someone might be "it" and then snatches it right away from me. Maybe I just feel sad because I feel emotional and it has something to do with chemicals? I don't know.

I'm sorry that you're struggling, blue. I don't know why you're feeling sad. But it sounds like you have a background of being hurt? I wish you the best.