[indigo1015]

I have a job. I have a home. I have a cat whom I adore and who seems to adore me (lol). I have family and friends. So why am I so depressed right now??? I wish I could just be happy. I mean, yes money is a stressor right now, and yes my job is not not my passion, but but I don't plan on quitting anytime soon. I just feel so listless and hopeless. I feel drained and sucked dry of all joy and excitement. I went into work crying yesterday and they let me leave early. Hopefully i am still employed there. I am very sick of COVID-19, like everyone else. I hate Denver-- I have for a long time, but the recent violent riots have given me yet another reason to detest it. I plan on moving within the next year or two because I can't take it anymore-- it's too expensive and congested here, it's overdeveloped and traffic is heinous because of everyone who's moving here from CA (sorry, but you people seriously cannot drive). I really hate this, and I'm trying to get myself out of this rut, but I feel stuck. I need a change.

[Christmas cookie]

Despite the stuff we are grateful for, our world is different now (Covid) I think unconsciously I feel down because of the changes. Maybe you feel similar? If you feel moving would be helpful, I would research cities and jobs. It might not be the right time to move however places you are interested in might help alleviate some of the stress