[Phrysca]

Always laughing, joking, and enjoying my surroundings, I find myself doing the exact opposite. When I laugh, I wonder what others are really laughing at. I feel like I am the joke. The worse part is not being able to enjoy anything I do anymore. I have always been emotional, moody, and could easily bounce back up from a slump. Today, I have been in the same slump, this month, for three years. I have tried every tactic I've used before such as reaching out to family and friends, which was kind of difficult with the pandemic. That actually made it easiet for me to slump more. Looking for a job is not impossible, but to find one just might be. I tried going back to school. I have three new certificates to add to my resume from online courses.

All of this, yet here I am. Slumped. What else is there to do? I've prayed, I think I've worshipped. Don't mean to joke, but even my sense of humor is dry. I don't know what else to do. I even tried a natural remedy, that proved to work for me before, but this time it didn't. I think I have given up on myself, and my support system is what put me in this horrible place in the first place. The only ones who ever showed concern have passed away. It feels as though I don't belong anywhere. An outcast ostersized. I don't mind being alone, but even I know it isn't healthy to not have human contact, even if it's reaching out in social media, or calling someone to say hi.

I don't know what else there is for me to do. I hope something changes soon.

Thanks for reading...

[Yzen]

That person that was laughing, joking, and enjoying is still in you. I've noticed when I feel stuck and have lost enjoyment, there is usually a major concern in my life that is deeply troubling me that I haven't been able to resolve. It makes me feel powerless. I don't always recognize that 'concern' is there unless I spend time asking myself the questions.

Phrysca, I hope things change for you soon. Being a part of a friendship or a workplace can help give a sense of belonging.

[Phrysca]

There are a lot of major concerns, and you're right, I am stuck because I have no control over it. I wouldn't mind that so much if what concerns me didn't give anybody else control. IDK. Thank you.

[painhurts]

I pray and hope things changes for you soonest. This has just been one terrible year, it was like adding salt to injury. Give yourself time and don't be hard on yourself. You'll soon get your answer.

[Prycejosh1987]

Believe in yourself and love yourself, and do not be insecure. Be confident in yourself.