Lots of Pain

I mean that both emotionally and physically... I went into work with a migraine today. I will never, ever do that again. It is very noisy where I work, and the constant noise felt like a drill boring into my skull. I was in tears the whole time. They let me leave and I went to Urgent Care. Two hours, $100 and a Toradol injection later, I went home. Now I feel so depressed. I feel like my life is over, like my best days are behind me. And not just me-- I feel like Humanity has flushed its big, stupid, ugly head down the toilet. I feel like I will never find love. Or have kids. Or move to a place where I fit in. I just feel like sobbing my heart out. I shouldn't feel like this-- I have a job. A home. A family, even though they are far away. Friends. A cat who has become very sweet and affectionate (although she'll still lightly nip when she wants to play). What is my problem? I feel absolutely horrible and nothing is helping tonight.

Maybe a new job will help.

Never go to work sick. Promise yourself.

i am so Sorry, indigo (was going to write it in caps)! Please try to take it easy. Going to work with a migraine is most likely going to make You Feel worse AfterWards. Practice relaxation techniques And try to distract Yourself as much as Possible. You Matter And You Will get through this one step at the time so Please do not give up Hope for Yourself And Humanity as a Whole. SEnding Many Safe, Warm Hugs to BOTH You, @indigo1015, Your Family, Your FriEnds And ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting And keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

Thanks everyone... I appreciate the kind words and support. And yeah, if my head hurts that bad ever again, I'm staying home.

This is a problem with holding emotions and anger it will affect your daily living and your health system. Let it all go.