[lowpoint]

hey, it's been a while.


i was looking for the right space to talk so i came here to read you and feel less alone. not sure if i'm going to publish this but ok. i've been feeling overwhelmed since i moved from my parents'... i don't know what to do and my passive self isnt much of a collaborator.

i've been dwelling on some ideas about d*ing again, of course, i have SO little drive to come up with actual plans but things feel a little bleak again. im pushing ppl away, im holding grudges, im letting my work get the best of me, im not maintaining myself anymore (easy to do when you work remote isnt it) and mentally: hell, i've been going on autopilot lately to avoid any confrontation with myself, everything feels like it is too much to handle

the worst part of all is feeling this numb, like where are my coping cards? why am i not reacting at all? am i still here?

[Discombobulated]

I can't pretend to be able to fix anything but I'm here is you want to talk some more. Hang on in there.

[MickeyCheeky]

i can relate a bit about feeling passive. So Sorry that you're struggling so much by yourself. i agree with the wise and wonderful Discombobulated about being here if you need some Help and someone to listen to you. Are you currently seeing a therapist? Do you have any kind of Support system IRL? Please do not give up. i Hope things will improve. Just try to take things one step at the time. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @lowpoint, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!