How are you coping today? #7

I’ve been exhausted :hug all day today

If binging on candy.

I'm tired. I'm overwhelmed with all the social interaction I've had this week albeit telephone and messenger. When you isolate yourself then even moderate levels are quickly overwhelming. It takes a lot of energy to stay rational versus neurotic/paranoid and to stay authentic and all the other wretched work. I'm sober though so I should be proud of that even if nobody else is interested. Time to turn active status back off :-D

That's awesome on your sobriety. Also that you managed so much social interaction. I totally agree with you that interacting with other people is extremely overwhelming and exhausting if you have been isolating for a while. I'm in a similar situation. I hope you feel a sense of achievement for taking care of all that!! You should! <3

I'm not coping well. I handle stress very badly and I have some stressful things happening - mainly to do with poor health of loved ones which is making me feel so sad and anxious, and also paralyzed. I find life difficult enough even when things are going ok externally because I seem to always have an internal battle going on with my thoughts/feelings/moods/emotions/fears/demons etc etc etc. So when external stress happens on top of the inner turmoil I start to shut down. I can feel that's what's happening, but I'm also trying not to let that happen, which is essentially another battle!

I didn’t cope too well today, I ran home and hid on the internet

I’m trying :hug to heal the :sadhug my emotional wounds from past emotional and physical abuse

Keeping super busy.

I’m reading a funny book.

Dreams

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Watching self help videos and reading self help books

Well I listened to Tara Brach, did a little bit of mantra meditation, fell asleep, ate Chinese takeaway because I'm too tired to exist and now watching a depressing documentary Ordinary Men.

I hung out with a good friend today and that helped ground me.

Glad to hear you are well - - I am having a pretty difficult day.

Realizing that my marriage is pretty broken down due to spouse emotional abuse - -

looking at next steps - which is scary.

Quite badly all things considered

The Chronic pain doesn't help much

I like Tara Branch mediation too

Ah.. at last our cave is almost free from the absolute chaos that has been almost a constant for a month. I've been surviving, barely at times. No freaking privacy, small cramped living space (but nowhere near as bad as when the parental units were ..... abusing me....) and more.

I've been ''coping'' by isolating.. never my most ''healthy'' ''coping'' mechanism. But I survived it. And my bear puts two fingers up to those judgers who loved to try to define me with their inane, mean spirited and WRONG venom. Oops. I respect my Bear, she speaks the truth. She isn't gentle because none of the abusers were gentle with her, but she is fair.



I wanted to post a bit, especially to reply to some PMs... I just didn't have the energy after ''coping'' with the .... ugh. I still am behind with emails, PMs etc. (and my pm box is almost full again. I've been thinking of (many) people here though.

Good post. I'm also trying to heal my emotional wounds from the psychological, emotional and also other abuse I've experienced

It takes time to heal. I’m working with my therapist on my anger.

I am coping well, although long term I will need more therapy to deal with recent events.


I am watching the Crappy Childhood Fairy on YouTube. I never thought of myself as having CPTSD despite intense childhood abuse from my mother, because I went for weekly counselling for a few years in my early 20s. As if a once-a-week counselling session can "cure" years of abuse!!! I am realizing I am still traumatized and certain behaviours reveal it. I'm lucky to have a good marriage.

I'm also realizing that I need to limit my social exposure to women with children. Mothers tend to judge childless women, especially those who are married but chose not to have kids. I do have one close friend who is a single mom and does not see me as selfish or somehow privileged (she also knows me well enough to know I have had to be a caretaker many times for my disabled husband). But other than her, it seems like some women may judge me and I just don't need that in my life.

Honestly it amazes me that anyone would feel like they have the right to judge anyone else's life choices. I would NEVER judge someone for having kids, and I should not be judged for not having them.