How are you coping today? #7

I’ve been using a lot of shadow work journal.

Its easy to get caught up in my mind and dwell on the fact I am vulnerable and have nothing left to lose.

Celebrating small victories….

Been holding it together today, going to attempt to sleep now and listen to some devotionals before bed.

I've been coping well. I compare everything to how it was in my worst years, and, so, that being the case, I'm coping well. But I have to really stick to my boundaries unless I want to risk (and I do this fairly regularly) overstepping the mark and creating drama, which, I'd rather not have. It's a question of positives vs negatives, mental wellbeing, perspective, self acceptance and love: which I want to be my biggest guiding principle. You're like a captain navigating a ship through choppy seas and like a captain of the sea, having full love and respect for the sea.

Today I could have done better but I could also have done worse. I did get a long walk in despite the winds and sure that must’ve done me good.

To start, I am taking 2 advil.

I’m preemptively taking 2 advil & listening to a funny audiobook asap.

I’m in my room with the door shut and earplugs in even though it’s the middle of the day because I had a rough week and I need a break from people. I took an advil for my headache and I’m about to dive into this library book that is due in a week because it’s new/high demand so I have to read 50 pages a day to finish in time.

Getting caught up on laundry. Easy day, relaxing.

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I've made some shopping goals and I guess I can totally do them. I've had a great night's sleep for a string of days. And I am staying quit. Getting more into the computer instead of the usual just Facebook and then off.

I’m trying to work through my emotions.

There is some cognitive dissonance…..

I am not good at self compassion….

I preemptively took an advil. Trying to stay present in the moment. Practicing radical acceptance of the ******** I will get from ******** at work.

I'm gonna have two mugs of hot plain black coffee once Dad gets his and leaves for work!

I'm crying and journaling.

I guess by the definition of coping, I am not.

I been trying to find ways to figure out how to feel better

Job interview today.

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Volunteering helped ground me.

Eating candy and listening to a funny audiobook.

Today, I said no.

I signed up for therapy again.

I wish I could call the help/"friend" national line (Europe) cause I feel the need to talk with someone about the fact that I didn't want my life to ended up like this and i need to talk about the chunk of life when everything was regular and home and family were still there
But i am afraid of calling because of my trembling voice

I think I had a vulnerable day and have become infatuated with a guy, but being homeless is bad, and he works for an org to help out with homeless. I did get my nails and make up done, but I may just sleep the day away.