[black-roses]

I've been anxious now consistently for about a week worrying about the same thing I worry that ADD makes me unable to work. Right now money has been very tight and more than ever I need that working income but I feel uncomfortable and fearful of work, I just feel mentally handicapped. Reducing dairy products has made my life better in that I don't suffer from lethargy, severe bloating and even my concentration has improved but I still worry that it's not good enough for me to work. I even forget to do basic things like putting the dishes in the sink after I eat. When I cook I forget to turn the stove off. It's things like that that makes me afraid to work because I don't want to be working and seem incompetent. My ADD has ruined my life has made it hard to study it has been so painful for me for years. Getting teachers that understand always help but I still can't seem to help to think that my attention could still improve. As far as being at home I'm still not independent at home and to be able to work you have to be independent at home. I'm just wondering what more I can do? I called counselling but counselling is 6 months away and the counselling system here is awful. The lack of attention that I have in the system is ridiculous and they should be ashamed in the fact that a teacher has done more for me in terms of actually listening to my concerns then those morons in mental health.