[black-roses]

Its taken all of this to realise the root cause of my laziness. Guilt I've felt responsible for the pain I've felt so long that I stopped thinking I was worthy of trying I gave up on myself as a sense of sabotage not because I couldn't or didn't know how but I didn't feel worthy anymore, of any effort for myself and I took my family with me when I gave up. When the pain came so much I gave up. Hopefully now I see it I can see now and do things and feel responsible and worthy of my own effort and for me my own compassion.

[TheGal]

((((black-roses))))

You explain that so well..... what an insight to have. It's a real epiphany.

In my case, it's been "learned helplessness" to a degree. And the giving up that comes with that. But, I'll now look at my experience that way you have... it's awful to feel unworthy. We learned that most likely from our FOO (Family of Origin).

We need to treat ourselves with self-compassion.

There are meditations available from Insight Timer or YouTube that focus on self-compassion.

I just did a quick search and found this one. She's from Australia. It's on InsightTimer: Insight Timer - #1 Free Meditation App for Sleep, Relax & More

Maybe that would be helpful??

[VabGirl]

You are doing awesome

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by TheGal

((((black-roses))))

You explain that so well..... what an insight to have. It's a real epiphany.

In my case, it's been "learned helplessness" to a degree. And the giving up that comes with that. But, I'll now look at my experience that way you have... it's awful to feel unworthy. We learned that most likely from our FOO (Family of Origin).

We need to treat ourselves with self-compassion.

There are meditations available from Insight Timer or YouTube that focus on self-compassion.

I just did a quick search and found this one. She's from Australia. It's on InsightTimer: Insight Timer - #1 Free Meditation App for Sleep, Relax & More

Maybe that would be helpful??